That's what Rafiki is technically saying lol
(although every now and then, I think of "Mrs Brown" Elder Price's Black Neighbor who dressed up like "Rafiki" at the airport for his Ugandan send off-wearing a Lion beach towel and with similar face makeup, singing "PWAAAANAOOOSAAAA" That show was sooo inappropriate-
it was great!!
I digress...
Welp! I'm on the Lion King Rafiki Tour! I DID IT!! I am a Disney gal!
** when you wish upon a staaaaar...**
I started rehearsal at HOME in Chicago during my birth month, and started performing in February in LA /Hollywood! Now, I am in Des Moines Iowa. I took the travel buyout so I could
1. stay an extra day in LA to pack up my "sublet"
2. tie up loose ends (pack up my apartment, lunch with Brock, studio session with Stevie Wonder!)
3. fly Delta and rack up points
3. to travel on my own and not see anybody from the cast/company. Always a reality check for me.
LA was insane...even though I was there for 2 months, they blew by! I was getting used to the workload of the show...and then driving to and fro in traffic, driving to rehearsals driving, and driving some more. I'm exhausted from the driving AND the show. At my house, I had two pride Rock staircases, so the climb NEVER ENDED!! These Quads and Glutes are OLYMPIC BIKER legs. But I was stressed out there- why? because it was home and I was torn between just doing the show and being home and seeing everyone and enjoying LA, kicking it, going out, eating out, exploring the terrain and hills and beaches...it was TEW MUCH! Now that we are in DesMoines, I feel a peaceful quietness...even in this hotel room, its so big and sunny, I'm grateful...to be in a smaller town. As I checked in in the night, trying to be unnoticed, right as I hopped out my Uber I was greeted by the stage manager and a drunk interracial couple, who fist bumped me like you MADE IT SIS, as I lugged my 150 lbs of luggage. Even though they were drunk, I FELT that fist bump in my soul. I DID MAKE IT! All the way from the West Coast, I eliminated sooo many clothes and THINGS I had been holding on too! I am fighting accumulating things and I had to go through so many THINGS and just donate or eliminate them...because when it's junky access around me, I feel junky and confused internally.
As so without, so within.
I didn't think I was going to do it, but I DID! I am slowly becoming a minimalist...( as I have a carry on filled with just scarves🙄). I am a work in PROGRESS and it's exciting to seeee the progress. I feel lighter. My next goal is the downsize to just ONE 50lb bag NOT two. The GAG is, I HAVE NO HOME YET to send my things...well, a home of my own. And THATS my goal on this tour, to save up enough money to purchase a home, and to get a degree/skills that is outside MUSIC that can secure more bags. I AM CAPRICORN and financial stability is a priority.
Also, on the emotional front, I'm coming up against the SAME issues at Motown with navigating people's egos. My personal test is keeping my peace and integrity around chaos. I'm much better at it but I realize from a chart reading as well, that I have so MUCH FIRE in my chart and can be INTENSE...I always try to subscribe to being a peaceful chill person, but thats actually not me. I'm not a mountain...I'm a volcano. OOOOOH....come on Spirit-
I'M NOT A MOUNTAIN 🏔 , I'M A VOLCANO🌋
And mogs be irritating me and I know I can "erupt" (verbally/energetically) but there will be no survivors and I will be very sad and lonely lol ...so, most of my energy is internal in tempering my lava...although, every now and then, it MUST come out... So I'm spending a lot of energy alchemizing my fire trying to be sweet and agreeable, basically, instead of the wild woman that I know I am! That makes no sense...no wonder I feel stifled and dissatisfied. I'm tired of playing small...I've heard this over so many years, but when will I actually start to play BIG or...rather just PLAY as I am? I will notice when I start to retract physically/energetically. I'll take notice and breath into expanding to my full expression again. I'm giving myself permission to be messy as long as love is my foundation, not ego or fear. Because those kinds of messes are intolerable and just add to the negativity.
ANYWAY!! I'm about to get dressed and see what Des Moines has to offer! I'm excited to be back in the Midwest, to be honest. I feel closer to my roots here. Let's see how grounded in love I can be....
